So Long, Farewell, Auf Wiedersehn, Goodbye....

Who deals with grief ‘well’?

Who deals with the loss of the love of their life positively?

Does anyone?

I’m certainly not dealing with it ‘well’….not a bit.

Not at all.

That’s why I need to go.

I need to get away……from everything and everyone.

I need to breathe, to be free of Death’s suffocating cloak, to feel almost normal for a while.

I miss John every day.

I long for John every minute of every day.

I hate this life without him….I hate it every day.

Hate is a strong word but it fits the bill.....I do honestly hate it.

Life no longer has sparkle.

It’s dull and ‘unsparkly’.

I need to find a tiny glimmer of that sparkle….if only for a few days.

And so….I’m off……to a secret location.

I’m not contactable.

I won’t be in contact.

I *might* post a cryptic photo or two on Facebook but that will be the sum of my contact…..unless I can’t resist checking on my puppies!!!

So long, farewell, Auf Wiedersehn, Goodbye…..

This is for you Husband - I Love You Now, Forever and Always.......my sad, battered and bruised broken heart beats only for you....it aways will xxxxx