Tomorrow, after almost 10 years with the company, I leave my job.
I leave so that I can sort, clear and pack before moving to Cornwall to start my new life.
To start again.
Today, more so than any other day since John has been dead, I feel the need to talk to him.
To tell him I am leaving my job.
To tell him the dogs and me are leaving London.
To tell him I am nervous.
To tell him I am scared.
To tell him I am emotional (more so than normal!!!)
To tell him I wish, with all my heart, that he was coming too!
I reached for my mobile this evening with the sole intention of calling John.
Then I remembered.
Instead I spoke to Cornwall, to a very, VERY special lady who reminded me that yes, it is scary and nerve racking but it's also very exciting....and John loved exciting!!!!!
Tomorrow night I will be officially unemployed.
6 weeks tomorrow I will be moving out and driving to Cornwall to start my new life.
I am emotional.
I am scared.
I am nervous.
I am excited.